A Conversation With My Soul

Sometimes I find it so challenging to just sit and write.  What will I write about?  Why will I write?  Who will I write for?  Driven by accomplishments, validated by the outcome, defined by my results – that is who I have been for as long as I can remember.  The intellectual me.  The perfectionist me.  The child me.  The not good enough me.

There is this pull, like a toddler grabbing on her mom’s skirt, this subtle tugging, somewhere deep inside.

What is that?

It’s a feeling, but not an emotion.

It’s an unsettling, yet everything appears to be fine.

It is my soul.  With the patience of a saint, gently tugging at my heartstrings, until I stop, long enough to notice it begging for my attention.

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But how long will this take?  Because I really don’t have any time for this.  I don’t have extra time.  I don’t have free time.   I don’t have time to sit around waiting for you.

Patience

Patience and quiet

Patience, quiet and faith

If our soul is the part of us that is true and pure, that is all knowing, that comes from love, that desires nothing other than for us to fulfill our purpose – why is it not jumping up and down, waving its arms in our face, screaming in our ear all the answers that we seek?

Why isn’t it leaving us a list of directions on the kitchen counter, like a recipe for life?

Why doesn’t it fly a banner high in the sky off the back of an airplane, with instructions?

Why does it seem to play this cat and mouse game with us, making us work so hard to discover all that it knows?

Because we verbally vomit on our souls.  Displaying the selfishness of a one sided conversation.  We beg and plead for the answer.  But we don’t stop, we never stop long enough to give our soul the chance to have a conversation, not just listen to our monologue.

Patience.  Patience to learn and grow, search and discover, fail and succeed.  Patience.

Quiet.  Quiet because it speaks at a different frequency than our ears can hear.  We have to learn to listen with all our senses.  Quiet.

Faith.  Faith that with patience and quiet, we will receive the guidance, the direction, the message that our soul is meant to deliver to us.

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My soul is both weary and ready.  Weary of battling the intellectual me, the perfectionist me, the child me, the not good enough me.  Ready for me to seek the quiet, allow the quiet, embrace the quiet.  Ready to give me all the answers I have been searching for, if only I’d listen and have faith.

My heart flutters.  It’s that feeling from inside, like that tugging of the heartstrings I’ve grown so accustomed to.  But this time it’s different.  I can feel my soul dancing on my heart….and I know we are having a conversation.

with Joy, Gratitude & Love,

 

Awesome Action Monday – Be Quiet

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There is NOISE everywhere.  The alarm goes off.  The dogs are barking.  The dishwasher is running.  The television is on.  The vacuum, the lawn mower, the garbage truck…..there is NOISE everywhere.  We have become accustomed to living in such a loud world that we rarely even distinguish the noises.  But that doesn’t mean they don’t have an impact on us.

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As loud as our world can be, our minds can be even noisier.  There is a constant chatter going on, those conversations we have with ourselves, that we aren’t even aware of.  Thoughts about ourselves, thoughts about others, thoughts about our future, thoughts about our past, thoughts about our health, our finances, our dreams, our mistakes.  Our thoughts are NON STOP…..unless we intentionally choose to quiet our minds.

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For the third time in a year, I am participating in a 21 day meditation challenge.  Why for the 3rd time you might ask?  Simply put, I haven’t been successful at making the act of quieting my mind a daily practice yet.

They say it takes 21 days to make (or break) a habit.  So for the next 21 days, I will challenge myself to being quiet for 15 minutes a day, with the intention of making this a part of my life, long after the 21 days are over.

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It’s not just that quieting the mind is a valuable thing to do….it is a necessary thing to do!  It requires an intentional, purposeful act.  Living in the midst of our noisy world with our non stop chattering minds, it requires us to choose to be quiet.

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Practice Random Acts of Awesomeness

Today’s Awesome Action is to choose to BE QUIET!  Call it prayer, introspection, devotion, reflection, meditation, mindfulness.  Call it whatever you will – choose any name or label that suits you.  Just choose to give yourself the time to quiet both your external world and your internal thoughts.

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Don’t wait for the right time.  Make the time!  Do it today!

Sit quietly, close your eyes (but don’t fall asleep) and be quiet.

Just 10 minutes.

*Awesome Action Bonus*

Start your own 21 day challenge!  Set aside 10-15 minutes every day, for the next 21 days – and practice the art of being quiet.

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Will you get in Awesome Action today?  Do you accept the bonus challenge?

When you share your goals or intentions with the world it helps to hold you accountable – so be sure to let someone know about your awesome action today!

with Joy & Gratitude,